10 years- it consisted of so many things.
No idea how to go on talking about it.
Disappointments, hurts, happiness, joy, anger- too many emotions had been there.
and I know God’s love always stay.

tenth year. I felt I’ve lost it all.
Maybe I had too many friends that I’ve not pay well attention to this FS. Time do tell each other how important you are to each other.
A little too hard to accept the fact that your best friends doesn’t ask you out anymore & they’ll become best of best friends without you.

What in the world am I talking about best friends, yet again.
Too naive me. Rather, too dumb to talk about FS.
So be it, let the 10th year just be another year.

I’ll embrace through, ya? I will.

23rd year of existence in this world- TYJ.

I came so far to see my mistakes more obvious. I am very insistent about it this time round. Many times I just chuck it aside saying giving myself more time. It’s time for me to move on..

It’s good to kinda stop contact with each other but it’s even worse to still be virtually contacting. Seeing & knowing more things never encourages me, just making me feel uneasy.

I guess she was right! Stay away & no contact. that way, I’ll be much more happier.

(now that I’ve just tried to still contact. the picture was stucked on my head, A & B. So yucks & urgh.)

Maybe I should have not even talk; just stay away totally. That’s one of the best solution ever..

*Really so tempted to ask. But tat’s just seeking trouble. just get out & stop prompting. everything be just fine & normal.

Talks were fantastic. Company even fabulous! Loved Lifegroup. Love the things we communicate and talk about. Love how honest we all are. Loved how we encouraged and share deep! Really excited for more of this! just cant get enough.

And…after today. It was a true deep recollections of thoughts. I finally shared sth that bugs my heart for a long time to someone. And the things he said came really comforting & i could felt it was so genuine.

On the other hand, whatever said made me had mixture emotions. Made me feel neither here nor there. Prolly dragged down by the lousy feeling. So many short-comings of mine needed to be changed. And so many things I realised abt myself today. I felt lousy; I felt I was so bad at it about why I can’t even bring up to that level.

Slapped inside out upside down hardly.

Suddenly, all came to light for me to see it so clearly.
Sleeping with mixture feelings & emotions. And i know my God is with me. I know His plans are always good for me.

How God is so real in my life. I’m in the midst of tight struggles. And whenever I see there’s dead end or even loses hope, I see God as my Hope. I’m so thankful to God that He is always faithful when I’m not. I’m pressing on.

Sometimes emotions come & go. I’m glad i’m able to better manage my emotions than last time. I’ve learnt to be more rational & more focused. I thank God for friends in my life that never fail to encourage me & comfort me. God, con’t adding on more. I never want to live a life lesser than what You have for me.

Your plans are always so good & I really dont want to miss any part of it. God You are just soooooooo goood!

how could i ever wana miss out His goodness?
how could i ever wana turn away from Him when He was there at the very first beginning?

It’s been a tough one for me, but God brought me here & I’m standing to profess His mighty name. Awesome.

I have an awesome God. And He loves you very much!

Whatever happened in the past, whatever happened and are not even worth remembering, let it all count as lost. All count as lost. Because I’m gona start this year with a new attitude.

Because of Jesus, I’m standing here.
God, make this year count & not be another year that is count as lost.
Not looking back & letting go.
God bless this wonderful year.